been a long time gone

It's been forever and a day since I last posted and I thought that I would take the time to write a bit. I'm about a month into my 7th trimester and as promised it has been busy. We have at least a practical a week if not more. Tonight I have slacked off a bit and watched "A lot like love". Decided that I needed a break. I've got a scholarship essay to write but other than that there is nothing else on my plate for tomorrow.
This weekend I was in Chicago for a BEST seminar. It was an uplifting and centering experience. The past month has been difficult emotionally and it was good to meet up with friends that I haven't seen in many months. Recently my father's mother died unexpectedly. I'm thankful that I was able to fly home to New York for her memorial service and be with my parents. I'm glad that grandma went quickly and was not in pain. I've also come to terms with a few things. My friend from Pittsburgh and I are just that...friends and nothing more. He is back in school and wrapped up in his own world. Distance and time have given me perspective and I have let go of my need/desire for a movie ending to that story.
It was good to go home. I realize that I have an exceptional relationship with my parents. I love and respect them and even enjoy hanging out with them. It is a bit hard to be back in Iowa after being with them. When I broke up with Drew I lost the intimacy that we shared. We spent a tremendous amount of time talking on the phone and were near inseparable on the weekends when he was home. I made the right choice when I broke up with him - I know that. I stayed in that relationship long after my heart told me to jump ship. Ah, the things we do because we think we are pleasing our parents or are "finally dating a normal guy".
So that brings me to where I find myself right now. This weekend at the seminar I found myself looking at one of my friends with different eyes. He had dropped a few innuendos which I chalked up to his humor until we went out dancing on Saturday night. Next weekend we are going out to lunch. Nothing may come of this other than an opportunity to get to know him better. It is exciting to like someone and I'm comfortable with the fact that he is younger than me and in a lower trimester. More later. I'm finally feeling ready to write.